Self absorption

Wreathed in smiles though mirthless.Ire burns in my eyes.Is it a loss or a flashing memory that brings so much amarodial in my troubled heart.Even with a cheesy smile you're still careworm.Flicking your head as if you missed the road but even that would be better than losing yourself.Does it count how many people you please or make them happy whereas you are lost in a vault of self-absorption!?